Monday, August 25, 2008

Making up for lost time

It's so odd to me. I used to blog almost daily. Now I do good to blog once a month! What happened to me? I used to be so good at writing and keeping up with my blog, even if it was superficial stuff! Now....nothing. So sad.

So I've been basically obsessed with the Olympics ever since they started. My sister and I have recorded it all. We're watching a little bit at a time, so we're like a week behind. Granted, we missed 4 days of watching the recorded stuff because we went to Oklahoma to see my grandmother. She has cancer and is not doing good. It was the first time I've been to her house in 5 years. Sad, I know. I'm not even sure she really knew we were there, or who we were. Anyways. Olympics. Michael Phelps! WOW! Can not get better than that. Gymnastics. I feel so heartbroken for Alicia Sacramone. Yeah, they won the Silver medal in the team final, but did you see her face?! She was devastated. Her 2 mistakes on beam and floor alone....if they hadn't happened, they would have won Gold. So hard to deal with. Proud of Nastia and Shawn for getting Gold and Silver for All Around! Makes me really wish I had stuck with gymnastics when I was little. Oh well.

I have been so aggravated today. UGH! First of all, I have had a TON of groups to price today....they keep piling up. (For those of you who don't know, I'm a travel agent....A Group Airfare Specialist) Secondly, the airlines have been taking forever to give me quotes. I mean like, it's taking half an hour or more to get a QUOTE! Not to mention actually booking a group! UGH! So annoying.

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I have majorly neglected myself. I have not been to Curves since April, before our vacation. I have gained weight. I've always been overweight, but this is an all time high. Not pretty. In fact, it's downright ugly. I hate it. I want to lose weight. I have the desire to lose weight. I just don't have the determination and discipline to do so. I'm trying to eat better. Not eating out as much, which is good for my weight and my wallet. But when you can't really afford to buy groceries except for maybe once or twice a month, it makes it really hard to buy healthy foods. I would love to eat all organic food, different varieties of foods, and would love to cook them! But my energy is around 0% when I get home from work. Which of course is because of my choice of diet and lack of exercise. It was much better to go to Curves when I had a buddy system. Now my buddy has moved away. It's hard to get back in the swing of things. Oh, and they closed the Curves location I was a member of. Now I have to pick from 2 other locations that are both out of my way. I'm leaning towards one, simply because I did not work there. LOL!

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God has big plans for my life. I know He does. I just don't have the slightest idea what they are! Well, ok, I'll be honest. I have a slight clue about some of them. But they are long term plans. Right now is just a big ball of fuzz. Am I in the right place? Am I doing the right thing? I hate not knowing. I trust Him. I just feel that maybe it should be a little bit clearer so I don't feel like I'm wasting my life away. This is the most frustrating feeling.

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I wonder if anyone is even reading this blog. Oh well.

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